Ah...what do I smell?

I Smell something...what is it? Is it the smell that the only person I like, like like is dating my annoying cousin?
Yes, that would be it.

But I don't care. I've got him as a best friend. A best friend who I just spent four hours on the phone with. Yes, that best friend. The best friend who doesn't realize his best friend like him more that that :(

Ok, i'm done now..

Nothing.. [one of my poems]

I just scrawled this one night..not nessissarily completed or good..

Nothing's here
Nothing's the same
It all became different
Am I still of sane?

No, I can't think
I'm acting so dumb
Now nothing worth noting will happen
Now that I've screwed myself, I've made sure of that.

So, all I have to look forward to is
the people I love
The people I hate
and myself - dying

Yes, that is it.
What else is there?
What else can I look forward to?
Now that my life has been messed up, nothing.